watched goal ytd with rutian
DAMN NICE LAA :D
then met jing rebe kahhwee
went t heerens
then walked t cine
in the end t 4 of them (someone joined them)
and me and rutian cabbed back
i really want to have a big group of friends. friends that i feel super comfortable with.. there's no need to hide anything from them but instead - confide into them. i want to have big group of friends to play with them and during chalets bbqs or outings we all have fun together.
but it seems like my friends are drifting away from me one by one.. sigh. >>): i dont really have anyone whom i choose t believe in and so on. i need someone who understands the present situation and hear me out. but i shldnt let this person hear me rant all t time - i want t be there for her/him as well.
--- has her own friends. im very happy for her. i stood by her all t time and feel proud abt it. [:
-- ----- i dont know abt him, but im sure we're drifting away..
and suddenly i feel as if i shld detach myself from anyone and live my life as a hermit. :
perhaps im jus feeling empty
cos i have no someone
why cant i have that special someone to fill the void
why cant i have gd frens at t same time
WHY CANT I.
my life's screwed.
Period.
i dont wna cry anymore..
i really dont.
i hate being like this.
i just wan everything back to me >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ):
only almost here,
7:41 PM.
